muaskkk Hey girls if you already had a lot without posting, sorry but I was unable to sit down at my computer and not much else got snow Snif! ! Mental block, this one shot is the second part of "THE DEVIL IS OURS" I hope you like thanks.
Second Chance
Why leave it to go well?
I wonder again and again,
If I love him more than anything in the world. We fell into the routine, lack of communication and my indifference to this we were apart, the truth is that I was afraid, I love him so much it hurts.
7 days ago today you leave y. . .
Today I realize that I love you more than I showed, but things were not as expected there were good things. . . So it hurts to remember and does nothing good for my mental health.
No there is only a possibility. . . That. . . A second chance. . .
Today I cry your absence and
Me Mata
1 ° I killed, not hear your sweet voice singing in the shower
2 ° It kills me, wake up and not feel to me.
3 ° It kills me not to listen to our song as a message alert
4 ° It kills me, receive messages only to realize that neither is yours.
5 ° I kills I say, I love you shorty
6 ° It kills me, coming home and seeing in every corner of your huge absence.
7 ° It kills me, not having you.
Edward you still love me?
still can not get past thinking, because it would assume that is the past and I'm not ready yet to close this chapter of my life.
Looking out the window of my office on the top floor of the building where I started 3 years before the advertising company had the view of much of the city and night lights was better buildings and places around were quite a spectacle.
From his back on my desk with his arms around my chest, lost in my thoughts could not find the way back to my old self, that girl who started all this enthusiastic _pensé glancing around he loved _y their work as much as she loved Edward, I could not concentrate on anything, lots of papers and things that needed my attention were accumulated across the desktop without a warrant.
The truth for me the company could go to hell.
A slam I jump on my back, I turn to meet the gaze from angry and frustrated from my dear friend Alice
One of my three best friends who now could not see anything happy. Attentive wait a new sermon, that was what he did for five days, however
He stayed there looking at me a moment
_Bella. . . _ Said after a few minutes escrutinio_ not come to give a sermon _ is a witch! You have to do algo_ Pensé_ I said looking at lots of earrings in the escritorio_ y. . . Look at you!. . . _ I said, stepping aside and letting seeing my reflection in the mirror that adorned the door from inside or covered it better, Alice had insisted on putting it there when I installed in the office.
saw a slim girl, wearing a navy blue suit and black shoes but especially with a sad face, sunken eyes and began to notársele black circles around their eyes, I noticed that I had slept little and I do not even makeup
Why?
gave him a look that said I-is-what-you-see What's the point?
_Bella he is making his life while turning the corner. . . Your. . . _ I said, pointing to the desktop and then the mirror. Both we reflect on it. She looked so happy now provided a grim and serious countenance wore a white jacket and black skirt both silk and her long black hair falling over his left shoulder. I hate to be the cause of this terrible concern.
_Voy be fine. . . _ I said without conviction and obviously she did not believe it.
He eyes and nodded raising his arms to the sky as if praying
_ Isabella Marie Swan! _ Saw profundo_ breathe I'll just say a few things and then I'm going.
I nodded because I was sure to find my voice.
_It that are suffering a lot, but enough, one of two to fight and get it back or leave it and pass the sheet to continue with your vida._ frente_ he said, getting me Do not sink, not permitiremos_ I whisper
_Tengo miedo_ confessed in a voice barely audible
know and that alone saves you from my ira_ I muttered but still smiling Bella _ he is not James, not you going to hurt.
"James"
was my first love, went to high school together, he was a member of the football team and I was a cheerleader, we left a year and although at first it was like any courtship, over the weeks showed his true self, only a negligible humiliating it felt good, but did not see at first that way first and then I fall. . . And it is worth remembering that just will remember the saddest days that marked me for life.
The embrace was strong but fast and as soon as let me, went as fast as he entered. Outside I could see the worried faces of Rose, Jasper and Esme
My friends and probably had heard the conversation, but said nothing on his face I could see that would sink as Alice said.
Fight. . .
For the love of my life
What if I refuse?
Oh god, I'm thinking about trying?
ay may even hope.
I suddenly felt that being in the office was a waste of time and I ran without stopping to explain to anyone because I got so
_ "Bella?! _ Rose shouted at my back when you reach the elevator that is took so I ran down the stairs, heard only the echo of my footsteps and my breathing becoming increasingly agitated. . . Had to get to my car and look
But where?
Arrive at parking lot and quickly got on my car
_ What day is today? Mars? It's Thursday! And it is 5 pm. . .
Take my cell phone and dial your number
"The number you dialed is off or temporarily out of service"
I answered a
What bad luck!
drove for 30 minutes until the architecture workshop was in conjunction with his friend Emmet Carlisle and the three made a good team of architects, together they were doing half the city.
double park outside the building, this was completely white with large windows instead of walls looked like a huge glass box that looked even remotely. I got off the car and between fast, the first thing I saw Mike fu the messenger who was leaving
_Buenos afternoon Miss Swan _ greeted me as always harmful bar with your eyes. . . Disgusting! but I did not care
now had a goal
Reach him. . .
I ask God why she was not too late.
Cross reception, without answering the greeting from the receptionist
Edward's office was on this floor, the hall is eternal hico me, only I heard the hurried footsteps walking .
I stopped at the door, my heart was pounding so hard I had to swallow to feel that would keep him in my chest.
was now or never.
Breathe again and decided
I opened the door without knocking before, not even three steps forward, the scene that was before my eyes, even in my worst nightmares have imagined finding. . .
of a sudden my heart refused to beat and my legs felt heavy and immobile as my mind wanted to turn around and run, to mourn my pain and misery.
Edward was sitting in his comfortable black leather chair that months earlier I had chosen and short-haired girl and blond was sitting on his lap kissing passionately really looked like he was doing dental work because of the way they used their language
gasped biting lower lip until it bled. That took me from my stupor and I could move again
Edward I had forgotten, no longer loved me and now there was nothing worth fighting for. I mustered what little strength I had left and left there. A few steps away was the office of Edward partner and this left her with some papers in his hand that released when in my haste to get away from there I stumbled and almost fell for it not been for his strong arms I argued.
_ god Bella! What happened to you? _ I wonder with those beautiful blue eyes that seemed wiser every time saw. Carlisle I liked him I always felt safe and at peace, before I break with Edward we had seen recently. Now I realize how much I to its proximity, as when you're cold and you approach the fireplace enjoying the warmth that you gave warmth. This was repeated _me Carlisle_ Bella reacts. Try to calm the anxiety but I could not consumed
_Yo. . . Carlisle is y. . . Edward. . . No_ managed to say through tears watching the door where my misfortune. Carlisle understood
_Viniste to talk to Eddie y. . .
Edward's voice alarmed by the concerned voice of Carlisle had done to stop what he was doing (again imagine that was a stab in my chest) and was alarmed to see me
_Bella did not know you were here did you come to see me? "_ asked staring at me, but my eyes avoided hers.
Carlisle answered by me, which infinitely grateful
_If Edward and took a big surprise when I come and see you. . . Hum_
_ Heidi Dress kissing! _ Exclaimed touching my arm to face him and so I did. His face was Bella I _ anguish. . . What you saw is an explanation
"Explanation? Why?
_If. . . But you have to give me any more response explicación_ _ said goodbye. _dije both and saw behind the door to Heidi with a smile on his lips faded by the kiss, wearing a black skirt so short that if you see bent more than those long legs and neckline of her blouse kept yellow nothing to the imagination, swept his eyes and I turn around and leave me wanting to salvage something of the dignity that was left after this shameful issue.
Carlisle made a motion trying to follow me, I stopped with my hand
_there Carlisle go alone. . . But thanks, I'll call then
_Por favor.
I could see Edward's face became serious at this exchange. Jealous? do not think so, not after witnessing the kiss.
I went. It was the end, nothing could be done, I was imagining the life of Edward beside that Heidi, forming a family household a future together.
what once made me swear
feeling eyes on my back, hear murmurs from the two friends, but not distinguished at all clear, then when the exit alance heard hasty steps, and by instinct rush mine until I left.
Breathe the air of the afternoon and I drink my car had a ticket on the windshield for double parking.
_Y follow my bad suerte_ muttered holding it in my bag
_Bella. . . _
I tense. That voice was. . . Edward I turn to see maybe this was the last time he saw him.
_ What do you want?
_Que tell me was what came to decirme_
importante_ respondí_ _No was nothing he stared me took me by surprise to see her wish. . . Even love, I could not help shuddering, that gaze as he does not feel that I could not get away even an inch _ No. You're not going to alejar_ told me caught between the car and body, the heat emanating I wrapped it and made my mind reminded her naked body tired and sweaty in my bed after for loving me, I bit into the cheek, in a futile attempt to stifle the desire that gave me a memory so vivid and rooted in my mind.
_Déjame go Edward_
_No
_If
_ Do not! _ Moving closer to me said that if face millimeters from my stay his breath fresh eucalyptus gave me vertigo, I had become addicted to its smell and had been too long without him in my mind I imagine that she kissed him and he answered my touch regardless of the fact of being publicly held my waist and pressed against his hard body and tell me how much I loved him.
And as a cold water I remembered the image of the kiss that had a presence in his office, it blew my little illusion. Swallow dry and went back to reality, this actually was killing me slowly.
_No Bella and tell me you're stubborn _ insisted
We look without blinking, or simply reminding us analyzing. Then I ask if he remembered the time we spent together.
_Ya told you anything importante_ tercamente_ I go and do not let your blonde will not only be the ganen_ you spit the words like acid burning inside.
I look funny, as if he'd just tell a joke great, it infuriated me.
_ What, I have monkeys on the face or because I look like that?
_This jealous
_Claro No_ said that of course it was but I was not going to confess. The THRUST enough to make me turn around and try a dignified retreat.
_No you're gonna go, this time not going to exclaim huir_ holding me by the arm and forced me to look into his eyes gleaming like liquid gold
struggle for freedom from his grip, but between more he struggled, the stronger I held. _ What do you want from me? _ Embarrassed to have him ask this close
_The truth. . .
_This well _ I finally resigned after it had come to almost flying _ I came because I wanted to talk to you
_ Did you want or want? _ Loosening its grip
_ Oh Edward still want! _ Grite_ wanted to tell you. . . These days without you I've been really bad, I realized when it comes to our bathroom and I suddenly realized that I not be there taking a shower, and my toothbrush next to yours, not the towel or anything of your stuff. I know our separation is my fault for letting things get to this point ...
_Ambos Bells had to blame, I did not realize what the routine and the lack of communication we were doing so not I blame only you exclaimed in a sweet voice _ soft using the nickname I got when we got engaged, definitely missed him die, but he seemed no longer or not have me hurt or simply no longer wanted me, I froze. The alarm is my expression so I did what I could to calm down, his hands up my arms rozándolos with her fingers up to my hombros_
_Déjame talk ... maybe after having no the courage to tell. . . I love you and that you will never quit, if that's why I go away because it scared me so much love and if it did not work as our self. . . I would die, but being away from you was just that my death in life. Edward I can not imagine spending the rest of my life without you. TE AMO._ told whether to take time to breathe and at the end I had to take a breath as if I were drowning.
said nothing for a minute but never stopped looking at me, the world could end and we did not we would not even notice.
_Bells never said anything about me tense James_ he obviously notice it, I gushed Shh tranquilizándome_ arm is fine I know told me about Alice James, I understand, but it hurts me not trust me _ His face was sad and without thinking pat your face as smooth as I remember, he closed his eyes and sighed wanted to remove but support her hand and held it up to her mouth and kiss.
_Oh, Edward, not that I did not trust you was that I did. . . Shame.
_This well do not worry, I tell you I am not like James, never hurt you, I love you and want you to give us a second chance.
Was it serious?
A second chance!
_Pero you. . . The blonde. . . Ella_
_Bells she kissed me but I never will respondí_ said before downing his strong arms and kiss me, in my mind countless times recreate the moment but had nothing to do compared with reality.
Time stopped, there was only his body pressed against mine and his lips on mine, we were a single person. . .
And this time would be forever.
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