So I've spent this week. . And for that matter, so I've spent all year, well, naturally they generate with a period of high variation. But is this, that of being leveled for a while does not happen, but I'm in a swing that, among other things, tired a lot. But I see no way to stop and level, and I must confess I do not know if I want to.
It's funny, I feel like a cross between a Buddhist monk and an angry teenager. There is a term to define this. In geosciences, we speak of phenomena critically stable. These are phenomena that remain fairly stable as long as the variations that do not suffer from the conditions of the phenomenon to pass a certain threshold, the overall situation remains. There are many examples, such as El Niño, where oceanographic conditions have changed radiclamente in a short span of 15 days, and financial markets, where speculation can take the windfall to bankruptcy and back in 8 hours it takes a market open. A clearer ejemlo escapes me, the stay should be.
Under this thinking, my head remains critically stable. And the general conditions near the critical threshold. In a moment I'm absolutely at peace with myself, enjoying small things of my life, my stuff and what I do, but it goes something small. And BOOM!, The critical phenomenon varies and get some underworld, where you just want to send my career to fuck buck out of Medellin and heartache he believed overcome. But after 15 minutes, with a word from a friend, or something mildly amuse me, I'm back well. And so I pass.
know if I can not imagine the fatigue This occurs to me at all levels. And what concerns me to be so, at a stage in life where I feel I must make important decisions. And if you lapse varies so much in so short ... How to make a decision that I want when I want change so much? It is straightforward to understand the power of this as a trigger of existential questions.
But when it comes to balance, I think you can win. As my ex-girlfriend, "This year has been interesting." And you are absolutely right. He descended into hell, but I've also felt and lived some of the best things in my life. And if I take a pomedio, good things have been more. With a lot of wear but I learned a lot. The flavor of life, that delicious but deeply painful to Time, it feels really well. And so I do not know if I prefer this state to a stable that I think can be monotone (although I can be wrong).
Sometimes I think I'm in the stage of life where I can stand what happens to me, and that to me gar, and that's why I'm here. Pains and a few years away, if it is not able to. But it strikes me that the state of critical stability is also critically stable. Can be regarded as a state transition between being steadily brought the whores and a happy state of being stably. But if you look from farther out, may be regarded as a transitional stage between adolescence and a state of adulthood. But in this case, I find it hard to tell if a teenager is less stable than I am (lol). Vision had closed, but that is why I think I had things more clearly.
state I hope this will help to clarify things again. I think so. Remains a kind of crisis, but an old Chinese proverb says that crises are opportunities. And this is the greatest opportunity I've had in a long time to grow.
PS: I owe a USB to my little brother Sebastian. I lost in a taxi and put this here because it just reminded me, and pure itch I wanted to write. Still, who knows when it pays. He is reading this in real time and I just simply say "bastard." Haha my brother
rocks.
rocks.
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